Why i started in service

Before there were cameras, there was a question ...

It’s the same question I ask in every interview.

And, if I’m being honest, it’s the same question I’ve had to grapple with myself as I’ve tried to understand where I’m standing in this current season:

What would you title this chapter of your life?

It creates a bit of an existential crisis when you really sit with it.

Because the question requires you to be present with where you are ... and, dare I say it, with WHO you are.

It asks you to reflect on what’s happening around you and everything that led you here.

The decisions you made.
The decisions you didn’t.
The people you gave access to.
The things you held onto.
The things God asked you to release.
The moments when obedience required more of you than sacrifice ever could.

There are chapters of joy, frustration, becoming, destruction.

Of I’m being honest, I’ve come to a chapter that has required me to confront a difficult reality.

And ... I think I’d call this one:

Letting Go.

For a long time, many of you watched me hold firmly to a dream of developing an app.

That dream isn’t necessarily gone.

But I’ve had to loosen my grip on it because, at some point, I realized I was getting burned from holding onto it so tightly.

And letting go forced me to ask questions I may have been avoiding:

Why am I trying so hard to make this work?

What is actually working?

Where have I already been led?

What have I already been doing?

And maybe the hardest one:

What if the thing I’ve been searching for has been sitting in front of me this entire time?

When I finally sat with those questions, I found myself returning to a sentence I’ve repeated for years:

“The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.”

I realized that somewhere along the way, service had stopped being something I simply admired.

It had become part of how I lived.

And maybe that should have made this pivot obvious.

But it didn’t.

Because the truth is, i've always felt like public speaker, were like teachers ... and teachers carry a lot of responsiblity.

I haven’t always felt fit to occupy a space where my voice carried that kind of weight.

But I’m beginning to understand that obedience cannot always wait for me to feel qualified.

At some point, I have to trust what He has freely given me.

And I’ve reached a place where I feel that if I don’t at least make the effort to walk in it, I would be choosing my comfort over obedience.

Because the truth is, He’s made this easier than I have.

I was the one trying to force something else.

Meanwhile, the conversations kept coming.

The people kept coming.

The opportunities to serve kept coming.

And this thing that I thought I needed to find had quietly been revealing itself through what I was already doing.

That realization changed the way I looked at the interviews I’ve been doing.

I love these conversations. I love sitting across from people and asking questions that invite them to go deeper.

But I kept feeling like there was supposed to be a little more.

Not necessarily more talking.

More doing.

I started asking myself:

How do I incorporate what I already do beyond these conversations?

How do I sit with people I admire—people who have encouraged me, challenged me, and chosen to live lives of service—and not only talk about the work, but step into it with them?

How do I listen to the people already doing the work?

How do I learn from them?

How do I serve alongside them?

How do I use what I’ve been given while still reflecting the heart of God?

And then it became simple.

In Service.

Mark 10:45 says:

“For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve…”

That is the posture I want this series to carry.

Not one of having all the answers.

Not one of positioning myself as the authority in every room.

But one of being willing to enter the room, sit down, listen, learn, ask better questions—and then get up and serve.

And that’s what this pivot really is ...

Not becoming someone new.

Not abandoning everything that came before it.

But loosening my grip enough to recognize what God may have been whispering all along.

Serve.

So, I guess this chapter is about the pivot.

About letting go of what I thought it had to look like so I could become more intentional about what I believe God is actually calling me toward.

And this time, I don't want my obedience to exist only in words.

I want to put my hands to it.

In Service is my attempt to do exactly that.

To sit with people who serve.

To hear their stories.

To understand their why.

To step into the work alongside them.

And hopefully, somewhere along the way, remind all of us that purpose isn't always waiting somewhere in the distance for us to discover it.

Sometimes, God has already placed it in our hands.

We just have to stop gripping everything else long enough to notice.

So, why service?

Because when I finally stopped trying to figure out what I was supposed to be doing, I realized—

it’s what I’ve already been doing.

Now, I’m just bringing you all along on the journey with me.

Welcome to In Service